Lord take my life
Make it one with yours alone.
Take all my burdens.
I can't walk without help anymore.
So many times I'd rather suffer in silence
Letting worries build and smother my soul.
So many times my pride takes control,
I tell you I don't need your support.
How can I be your child when I can't call your name?
I cry out in pain to an empty void.
But now I ask you, open that door,
Fill that emptiness with you.
Lord take my life
Make it one with yours alone.
Take all my burdens.
I can't walk without help anymore.
Only you can take my pain.
Only you can heal those scars.
No now I turn, turn away from the world,
I'm retu
When you stared into my eyes that night
I saw I’d lost the game
Love can only work its course
When two hearts feel the same
A flame so strong had learnt to fight
Against the winds you blew
But once I saw your candle burnt
My light, that went out too
I clutched at straws, lied to my heart
Thought your mask couldn’t be real
Turns out though I was just a fool
Love’s not what you feel
If we stay friends I know I’m safe
No point in living a lie
So believe me now when I ask you
For one last kiss goodbye
I saw you standing there once
To catch me when I fall,
With a smile to heal my pain.
It doesn’t matter anymore.
I saw you standing there once,
With outstretched arms,
And a comfort for my tears.
It doesn’t matter anymore.
I saw you standing there once,
With hardened eyes that showed the truth,
And a sneer to break my sorrow.
That’s what matters now.
It doesn’t matter anymore
Because you turned your face away.
A friend in need got no regards
You don’t stand there now.
Hypocrites, that's what they are
Caring for themselves and no-one else
Does it matter what I say?
Not if I'm needed to take the blame
"Do that now" they shout and walk away
Never once taking their own advice
Yet who goes down if it all goes wrong?
The one and only me.
They don't care that they're just as wrong
I'm their scapegoat now.
It doesn't matter who told the lies
The punishment all goes to me
Whose fault would it be if I wasn't here?
Maybe then they'd tell the truth
They couldn't have their two-set rules then
It could only be one for all.
Memories swirl as silence descends
Darkness envelops, my heart won't mend.
Faces swim before my eyes
As times from the past go racing by.
I don't want to think,
don't want to recall
But the memories remain standing tall
I try to run,
try to be free
Still the past is chasing me.
The pain kicks in,
it takes control,
The damage is done, look at my soul.
I look to tomorrow but see yesterday
A barrier stands high blocking my way.
I want to go forwards,
I don't want to look back
But strength to go on is the one thing I lack.
Memories swirl as silence descends
Darkness envelops,
My soul won't mend
Shadows dance across the walls
As I lie in silence, don't want to recall.
But messages from the past, events gone wrong,
Swirl and haunt me, the night seems so long.
I see your face drift before my eyes
As my mind is filled with the hurt and the lies.
You cut open my soul then left me to bleed
Just as I thought you were the one that I need.
When you stabbed me in the back I felt so alone
Watching the world revolve in a solitary tone.
I try to move on but my mind turns back,
Strength to go on is the one thing I lack.
I never knew a friend could be so cold
The way you turned away and times grew old
So I sit and wonder, watch dream
I hear your voice echo in the secrets I keep
Saying "Get out of there before you're in too deep."
I want to swim but I know I'll sink
I must stay focused, I must think.
I got involved and it's not just for my sake
That I must keep my head or eggshells will break
The voice goes on saying "It's not too late,
Just step out now, leave it to fate."
I push thoughts away, I won't back down
I know I'll get through this, I won't drown.
You think you know me, that you can make up my mind.
But the problem is, I'm one of a kind
Your voice heeds a warning, I know it might be right
But I'm in so deep now, I'm out of sight.
They cut like knives,
Tear into shreds
Make people wish they were dead instead
They can't be taken back,
They're here for life
Forever to cause pain, suffering and strife.
They bring happiness,
Love and joy too
Till one more is slipped,
It's all gone too soon.
You've made a mistake,
Regret what just happened.
It's too late now, but things will mend,…
Won't they?
The harder the voice
The stronger the pain
Somebody's life just isn't the same
They cut like knives,
Tear into shreds
Make people wish they were dead instead
They can't be taken back,
They're here for life,
These are the words,
That just caused the strife.
Have you ever looked at the sky and wondered why it's so blue?
Have you ever looked in your heart and seen the same colour in you?
Blue is the sky, blue is my heart,
It's been that way since we've been apart
The day you left, didn't look so bright
Now I realise, everybody was right.
We weren't meant to be,
Not you and me
So why do I feel so empty, not free?
You made me laugh, and you made me cry.
Yet I wish you didn't say goodbye
You stabbed me in the back, like a bullet to the brain,
My past, my future, just isn't the same.
Blue is the sky, blue is my heart
And now I've realised, you made it that way…
From the start
In times of trouble you stand by my side,
Never letting me go
In times of need I call your name,
You never let me go
Even when life sends darkness and pain, you clear the path and
Never let me go
Lord I praise you for you unfailing love when you never let me go
Lord I thank you for standing firm, even when I crumble you never let me go
When my faith is low you bring it back and
Never let me go
When I feel weak you give me strength and
Never let me go
When darkness surrounds you turn on the light and
You never let me go
I praise you lord and I lift you name on high when I thank you
For never letting me go
I hide in the shadows, watching, lurking
As silent figures glide before my path
You may wonder why do I hide?
Why don't I surface before the crowds?
Could it be that I'm scared of rejection,
that I wont be accepted for who I am?
Could it be that I'm confused,
not knowing who I am, what I am,
where I belong.
So I wait in the shadows taking notes on the pitiful souls around me
As they act out a scene from an unrehearsed play
Do any of them really understand the true parts they play?
Do any of them see beyond the shallow exterior of their fellow characters
They glide unaware of the being that watches
As I long to fit in, but not
Deep you twist then pull it out
Sitting back to watch me bleed
I sit in agony while you stay calm
Holding that knife you pay no heed
So much pain leaves you satisfied
Knowing you have caused that hole.
Still I reach out, longing just for love
Unwavering blankness chills my soul.
Current Residence: Tamworth Favourite genre of music: Anything goes Operating System: Windows Wallpaper of choice: Homemade Personal Quote: If I get up I might fall back down again, so I get up anyway (superchic(k))
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Inky!
Favourite Movies
too mnay to choose from
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Spiderman 2
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XBox
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anything possible to write on and anything to write with
Woohoo! Off to India on friday! Should be so good. We're spending 2 months travelling between Chennai, Kovil Patti and Mumbai doing all sorts of work like leperosy colonies, childrens home, planting churches, hospital work....I could go on for ages! But yeh, I can't wait. And it's gonna be such a great opportunity, for all of us, to be able to share God with people who don't know Him.
See you all in March!!
OK, i dont usually use the journal...in fact I dont think Ive ever used it but anyway, I need help! I havent submitted anthing in aaages cos Ive got a major case of writers block. The ideas are there but putting them on paper is a different story. I think Ive worn the topics out as well so I'm all dried up now. So....if anyone can gimme any ideas....